Oh My Middle of June Already!!!!

Wow!!! A lot has happened since I last posted (early April it appears). Well...nursing school didn't exactly pan out like I had hoped. I suppose some of it has to do with how much of a work-a-holic I was/am. Trying to balance two jobs and nursing school really did end up being crazy!!! So long story short, it does not appear that a career in nursing is in my near future. It was definitely a very dark and depressing time. After I realized just how much I was sinking in my classes, I was coming home after work/class and simply crawling into bed, crying myself to sleep, some nights not even staying awake to eat dinner. On my "days off" from work, I would lay in bed all day and then feel guilty when Bec got home after being at work all day because I had done absolutely NOTHING all damn day, not even got up to shower (gross I know, as I feel disgusting when I don't get my daily shower). It had been quite some time since I had been in such a dark place in my life, leaving several friends worrying about me, to the point of wanting me to start taking SSRI's (happy pills people). Thankfully it only lasted a short time. The hardest part was feeling like I had let my family down. Even at almost 30, I still feel it's very important to make one's family proud, and bombing nursing school left me feeling I had done everything but that. I had great conversations with my mom, brother, and sister-in-law and all three made it so much easier to accept my academic failing. As for now, any future school plans are on the back burner, so to speak. I guess the one good thing is that I already have my Bachelor's Degree, which would allow me to attempt my Master's in nursing if I so choose to ( a co-worker is trying to talk me into this but I am not at all sure how I feel about it). It has certainly been quite a change only working one job as well. All of the extra free time has been rough getting used to but I think I have adjusted well!!! When the semester ended in May, I took my first REAL vacation in about 4-5 years and headed out West with my cousins, Debbie and Shannon, Debbie's friend Beth and the best non-boyfriend boyfriend EVER, my boy Eric. We spent three days in Vegas visiting my cousin Kerri, who works for the Blue Man Group (yes we saw the show and it was pretty AMAZING). Spent a lot of time on The Strip, lost a little money (came home down $10) and just got to chill and relax. We then drove over to Los Angeles to see my other cousin, Kasey and her fiance, Farley. LA was incredible. It was my first time to Cali and I can't wait to go back!!! What a great time, seeing the ocean for the first time (sad I know), watching all the crazies on Hollywood Blvd and in Venice Beach, and taking in the Dodgers/Tigers game. All in all I would have to say it was a pretty successful trip! OK I think you have all been updated enough...going to attempt to accomplish some things before dinner. HOLLA!!!